Many times i think of what is the use of living and think about how it would be to just end it. when I was younger (I am in my mid 40's now) i was still enthusiastic and energetic about life, new experiences and doing wonderful things.
the more i have learned about how corrupt the world actually is we live in, and I mean full blown corrupt, everywhere the less i feel motivated to do something let alone contribute to society.
i keep going but many, many times I wonder what the h*** I am doing and why i should continue. in the big scheme of life...does it really matter what I do? I have more and more doubts about that. seeing the news, seeing the corrupt politicians, seeing the corrupt corporations, seeing how the banks rob everybody and being protected by governments i see very little positive change. in fact, it seems more like, business as usual and most people are either asleep or doped up with alcohol, drugs or medications to numb the pain.
when does it all end? why continue? maybe life is better at the other end? who knows.