I need some advice, please
I was with my cousin in a hotel in california and it was like 4 am in the morning. there was a public terrace for everyone to smoke or just chill in that always open. So he texted me to meet up with him so we could smoke weed and get high. to make it clear, we kissed a couple times so we were sort of romantic. but that night, it got too cold and we started walking around the hotel, pressing random buttons on the elevator and checking out each level while beig half high and happy. so he stopped at a level and i sort of put my head on his thigh. suddenly, i feel his hand going under my pants and slowly to my p****. i didnt stop him because i got too weak. but i rememeber not wanting it. i didnt want s**. suddenly, after feeling how wet i am, he pushes my pants down and climbs on me but he rubs his d*** on my p****. i didnt stop him and i was basically paralyzed. he didnt f*** me though. he rubbed on me and finally came all over the carpet. half way through it, his d*** slipped in me and thats when it hit me that im really scared that im losing my virginity. quickly i push him away but he apologizes and sets me back down. i tell him i dont want anymore but he doesnt stop. i layed back as he kept rubbing. so im scared and i just want someone to tell me if it was rape or not because im too afraid to meet the truth. the problem is, we did it more but i kept feeling like i was pressured because i tell him no and after smoking weed and getting high, he starts touchig me. and i keep saying no half way through it but he doesnt stop or listen to me. Pls keep in mind that all he kepy doing was rub his d*** on me and he swears that he doesnt c** on me.