Life finally sober?

So i used to be a heroin addict. before that it was pills, before that it was cocaine,before that it was booze and pot. i started when i was 12 im now 22 and for the first time in my life im sober. its been 113 days clean now. but now im starting to remember things. things i havnt thought about since i started using. now i know why i started. the problem is i dont want to remember. i dont want to think about it. it drives me crazy that all that s*** happend to me at such a young age. why didnt anyone protect me? why didnt i protect myself. i cant sleep anymore im always having panic attacks. i feel myself breaking and i cant stop it. i want my drugs back. but i dont want to be a junkie anymore. but if these thoughts in my head dont stop and these memories dont go away i dont see me having a choice. i cant handle it. i never have obviously there's a reason why i blocked it out for so long!!! i dont know what to do anymore~~~

Report this

1 Comment

  • newest
  • oldest
  • most replies
  • most popular
  • Hang in there, you have another chance to handle it right this time. Pain in remembering only means that you are healing. It feels good afterward

Account Login
Is this post inapropriate?
Is this comment inapropriate?
Delete this post?