I don't know if I can ever deal with working again.

I'm actually legally disable, so I technically don't have to.

This isn't some SJW safe-space **. This is not being triggered by "Trump 2016" written on the sidewalk in chalk (which is hilarious, BTW).

But my experience in retail and fast food was so ** soul-crushing that I dread working. People who have never done that ** have no clue what they are talking about.

Don't get me wrong. I desire to do more in life. I finished my Bachelor's. I've been looking for work.

But I get a sinking feeling of dread thinking about having to put up with the ** again. If I can actually handle it.

Especially since all of the ** I have put up with since I've started to work just continue to build up.

I've been fired twice because I let the stress get to me and screwed up too much before I could find something else and just quit.

I think the only thing that would help is to get into a situation where I can work for one of those employers up until the point that I can get something better, then quit on my own terms.

It would be so nice to work there until I don't need to then tell them to ** right off. Let them feel the sting of disappointment.

But I doubt that would ever happen.