This is ridiculous.
I miss you so much.
You were my first love, and my love of four years.
Every second is torture now that you're gone. Every f****** second. And I know you want us to be friends. I know you miss me, and I know you love me. And I know you want to be with me again! So why don't you? When two people are in love with one another, they should be together. So why?
I spent so much time trying to convince you that we should be together. And I held you. And I cuddled you and made you feel better. And it did! It made you feel so much better. But then you remembered where you were. And you got mad again.
I'm sick of you telling me that it's over and then touching me and letting me touch you. It's just not fair.
And it's new torture every time I see you. Every word we speak reminds me. Everything I do reminds me of you! I don't know how to live without you.
I cry every f****** day. And I know I can't talk to you anymore.
I know I have to let you go.
It's just so hard.
There's no one else, either. Everyone else is taken. Everyone that's interested in me is so much older. And I have to see you at school every day. How do I ignore you when not only am I in love with you, but I'm forced to see you?
You know that you're doing more harm than good here.
And all I can do is wait for you to come back now, and get on with my life in the meantime.
I know you love me, and I know you miss me.
And I know you're doing this because you think it's best.
But you'll realize sooner or later that it's not.