Wanna hear a secret?
I'm a highly functional junkie. Opiates 24/7. I am in so much pain that my cocktail consists of waking up and taking Morphine, a 12 hour release. Then during the day I will take fast acting dilaudid, 2 or 3 it really depends. The thing that you don't know that makes me constantly in some form of 'highness' is a fentanyl patch that needs to be changed every 72 hours, 3 days. I am in so much pain that I need this just to get thru the day, not pain free but manageable. I had forgotten to take change my patch and at 330 AM, from a dead sleep, I start withdrawals and it leaves me fumbling around my room looking for some relief, a new patch and 3 dilaudid to even me out. When I go to the gym in a few hours, my co-workers will see the patch and ask me how long has it been since I had a cigarette. I'll lie and say 5 years, even though I have not smoked in a day of my life. Living the life...or is it lie?