I made ourt with my boyfriend's rommate
I am 20 and I am in a serious relationship since 6 years. But since 5-6 months we are fighting and have many conflicts. About a month ago, when my boyfriend went home, my dad called and yelled at me for some things. I was sad and was looking for comfort. So i called my boyfriend's roommate(who is also a good friend of mine) to feel better. We were talking, One thing led to another and after an hour or two, we were making out. It was just a one time thing. I am still with my boyfriend. And i hate every second i spend with my boyfriend feeling disturbed that i cheated on him. I can't kiss him back. I feel like telling him what i did but i can't. I love him. I don't wanna lose him. But at the same time I am really freaked out to be with the same person the whole life. I spent my five years of teenage with him. I am freaking out at the thought of being with the same person forever. What do i do?