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I [20f] just moved into an apartment with my bf [24m] of about six months. We've been pretty serious, and have talked about getting engaged. I really love him. He's also majorly attractive, and I admit that I'm a little insecure about it, because although I'm good looking, I'm not sure what he sees in me.
Anyway, I was unpacking some of his stuff while he was at work and came across some of his diaries--he loves to write. I couldn't help but read them. Some of the stuff I read creeps me out and makes me question his morality, because he's done things like threesomes and even a ** once. I don't get why he would disrespect himself like that. It's like he doesn't understand that being intimate is a sacred thing.
The worst thing I came across was that he was ** some lady who was 38, married, and pregnant. This was not even two years ago. It was a coworker of his (and might still be, I don't know). That he would violate another couple's marriage has me really upset, because it's not the vibe I've ever gotten from him. It's like seeing a whole different side of him, and one that I don't like.
Obviously I haven't brought any of this up to him, because I don't want him to know that I read his diaries. He has really treated me well, and I have no doubt that he is faithful to me at this time. I just worry about his morals, because in the past he hasn't been able to keep his ** in his pants. I love him so much, and I want him to just be mine forever.
As a single guy in the 80s I dated a lot of women up to 4 at one time, intimate with all. At some point decided I was ready to settle down. I did and got married was a good and faithful husband and father. 22 years until cancer took her to be with the Lord. If he hasn’t given you a reason to question his loyalty to you then don’t. I would suggest you find out what his sexual appetite is now. You both need to agree what you will or will not do. If on the same page enjoy life together if not move on. Even if with someone else sexual appetite needs to be resolved before marriage.
Be thankful that you found out this information sooner rather than later--a leopard can't change his spots. He likely still has a carefree attitude towards ** that could be problematical later. Consider yourself warned.
You shouldn't dig too much into his past. So he had some fun, and got his rocks off a few times. If you're lucky enough to have a great relationship for life, those youthful moments will be distant memories. Just love him and appreciate that he has some kinks.
Haha, he's probably ** that older woman right now. Do you know where he is at? If not, well guess what.
Ok, the thing about having ** with a married woman is a bit ** up, but I don't see problems with him being sexually adventurous outside of having a relationship. What about that bothers you?