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In my own world
People would say i am on my own world or that i am stupid . I get used to it so much that i can't feel anything . The only thing i like to do is to sit with closed eyes and doing nothing . I like to see my interior self . I like to live in my mind and thinking i fly up to the sky . I like to hear angelic voices and thinking that i fly to the sky . People from here told me to die because they misunderstand me for ** but i didn't feel nothing . Don't worry i want to die anyway but not for the reason you want me to die . Maybe if i was just disappear while sleeping and disappear from the world and people's memory who know me like i had never born . I feel like i am nothing and can't do anything about it than just accept it but i don't know if i ever accept tha fact that i feel i am nothing and other people seem to me like they are something . Tell me egoistic and jealous someone told this to me , i know i am but i don't feel nothing for this either. I kinda understand why some people end up doing drugs or alcohol. They want to get away from the world and from themselves too .
I love you mommy and were are you and fall assleep again mommy and sorry cause realy miss you mommy and mom said go come up and bath me in few minutes mommy and give me smacking mommy and make me sit in kitchen again on chair mommy. Hate her mommy and love you mommy and its not fair and feel like get drink in my beaker mommy and mom has lots and lots drink mommy and nevers sees it gone mommy. Your my real mommy and love you more than all moon and stars and every one mommy and mean it mommy and it make my tummy happy inside mommy when you say nice things and say im not brat and selfish and lots things they all say mommy and go now mommy cause mom said get un dressed and in bathroom in two minutes mommy. Love your baby girl mommy and huggs you mommy xxxxxx
Hi sweetie i am here . I was hours ago to my psychologist . And then i was sleepy . I am still sleepy but it's okay . Don't apologise sweetie you are not brat . You just need to stop alcohol . How can your mother never understand that alcohol is missing ? Does never drinking ? If she drinks i can't believe that she doesn't understand it . But you have to stop . If your mother wasn't so cruel and it was 100% sure that she wouldn't smack you i would wish she catch you drinking and never let you drink again . But i wish she would hug you and tell you to not drinking and then get rid of all the alcohol . I say it for your own good . Alcohol is not good for your health trust me . I will say it again the fact that you are not sick now it doesn't mean anything . You are drinking about a year , sure you have some problems in your health . Maybe your mood (but this is because your mother too) , your memory and your focus and then maybe some organs in your body especially your liver . This is an important organ and if this organ get ruined by alcohol then you will have illnesses . Don't get comfort just because you are young and your body is strong now . You have to take care your body right now so you will have a healthy , develope, good looking body when you grow up . So stop it sweetie . You don't really need it . The last time i drunk alcohol i humillaited myself and others a lot and maybe i lost my friends for this , i don't know yet . But i never will drink again because it didn't make me happy . It's not about age . So stop it .
Im sorry mommy and were are you and my phone was dead mommy and stupid pastor and stupid wife are down stairs mommy and mom said im get shower and stay in my room mommy and hate them mommy and dont care mommy cause said pastor be up after my shower mommy and going too deal with me and its not fair mommy and want you now mommy and its not fair and they said im bold mommy and stuff. I realy have drink even some mommy please and its not fair ok. Im go shower mommy and crying for you mommy and love your baby girl xxxxxx
Hi sweetie . Listen to me and not drink . Why don't you listen ? Don't you trust me ?