Mending family relationships

I am caring and sensitive, yet stubborn... I've never had the best relationships with my parents. My mom has a lot of narcissistic traits, which is understandable after everything she has been through. My step-dad can be very manipulative when he wants to be and it's hard to trust him... but at the end of the day, they are my parents. I fell out with my mom at the beginning of this year. I was sick and she was nagging me, assuming the worst while ignoring my condition. It was a bad time. My stepdad was in the hospital for open-heart surgery so we were all under a lot of stress. I went off on her and told her I didn't want to talk to her. I didn't even wish her happy birthday, I was so mad... but now that the anger has subsided, and I'm going through hard times, I'm realizing I need my parents. Not even for support, because they have never even been good at that, but just to be on good terms with them. My step-dad and I have been through a lot of rough patches, but the truth is he really has gone out of his way for me at times when he didn't have to. He could have easily ignored my existence as so many step-parents do, but instead, he took on a fatherly role, even if it wasn't one I always agreed to... He's aged so much in these past months. I haven't talked to them in so long despite living under the same roof as them and it's crazy to see how old he looks, compared to when I last talked to him (which was a few months ago). I really want to bury the hatchet and show them what they mean to me. At least my step-dad... he deserves better. My mom is cold-hearted and I think I'd be better off without her honestly. Regardless, I wish I knew where to start. My fear of rejection is keeping me from reaching out to them. It's eating at me.

Feb 21, 2018

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  • Hey, it's good that you have empathy for your parents, even if your mom especially is so difficult. I hope you figure stuff out. I advisecyou to find a good therapist you can trust, and work thru things with them. If I'd opened up in the therapy i had long ago i bet i'd be much happier with myself and others today. You didn't say how old you are, but it becomes harder and harder to change as you get older, as patterns just get ingrained deeper. I wish you the best.

  • Find me daddy im you son. i love you daddy.

  • Hello son.

  • Thanks finding me daddy. i asked them too get my clothes. i love you daddy.

  • They are not going to bring you clothes yet. You will need to stay longer. I love you son.

  • My ancle and belly is kill me daddy and i want you. they made me take a tablet. i love you daddy.

  • I tried too get up daddy and i fell over wires. i twisted my ancle and they said i have go for xray. i love you daddy.

  • You are meant to stay in bed not walking around those wires monitor you. Now you might have broken your ankle. I love you son.

  • Were the h*** did you go daddy. why did you leave me and the nurse said im too be good and she said im not too get out off bed again or she will tell doctor on me daddy. did you let me sleep on top off you again. they have my ancle in cast daddy and sticky things on my belly and chest. i was taken them off and do you know the nurse said i better not dare do it daddy. my face was gone red then because i was getting out off bed and i think she seen my willy and bum. can you give me a hug and kiss if its ok. i love you daddy.

  • Stay in bed son and leave those wires and things alone they help the nurses know how your blood pressure and heart and oxygen levels are doing in your body.You were sleeping on top of me again and nurse saw both our willies and smiled.I love you son.

  • Do i have too stay in bed daddy. did nurse realy see your willy also. i love you daddy.

  • You need to stay in bed this way you will heal faster and nurses like looking at willies it makes them smile. When I was in hospital the nurses helped me pee all the time.I love you son.

  • But you have a big willy daddy and i dont. they probley laufgh at me. i love you daddy.

  • No they do not laugh nurses see so many willies in a day and they see girls slits. I love you son.

  • They wont laufgh at me daddy and they seen yours and mine. i love you daddy.

  • The nurses held my willy every time I needed to pee. I love you son.

  • I dont want them too do that daddy. they said i will have to get washed. i love you daddy.

  • Do not worry let them handle your willy you will like it. The wash oh yes they can do that all day. I love you son.

  • They washed me all over daddy and i let out a curse. i love you daddy.

  • You should have said the wash felt good do not stop. Not cuss at them you son have a lot to learn. I love you son.

  • I have too learn what daddy. i love you daddy.

  • When nurses do things for you be nice and thank them and not be mean to them. I love you son.

  • I will then daddy and just dont want them see me. i love you daddy.

  • Let them see no big deal.I love you son.

  • They did see. i love you daddy.

  • I am proud of you son. I love you.

  • Its not big like yours and no hair. i love you daddy.

  • I have no hair right now because my daughter has cancer and has lost all her hair because of treatments . So I shaved off all my body hair. I love you son.

  • So you kind off look like me down there daddy and is your daughter in hospital also. i love you daddy.

  • Yes she is . I love you son.

  • I hope she is ok daddy. i love you daddy.

  • I love you son very much. I hope her treatments work.

  • Im going too sleep daddy and you must be very busy. nurse gave me tablet and im feeling tired. i love you daddy and good night.

  • Night night son.I love you.

  • I woke up and you are all liers daddy and i said i loved you. yous are all a******* and so get lost and f*** you and them.

  • Here we go again you want to f*** me again. Oh son when will you learn.I do love you son and I hope you are healing better and you will be strong as ever. I am proud of you.

  • Stop saying that too me. you are the one that left me. i love you daddy.

  • Daddy had to take care of may things yesterday and I was gone all day and part of the night. I am sorry son that I left you alone. I will have physical therapy for my shoulder in a little while. I hurt my shoulder and need to get it better. I do love you son.

  • I cried because i thought you were gone forever daddy. i wanted too go home and my a****** dad said too me if i act up he will close curtain and give me a rite smacked butt. i love you daddy.

  • You are in hospital he should never do that.I should use two belts on him one to strap him against the wall and the other spank him all down his back side.
    I love you son.

  • He did not do it daddy but said he would. hes an a****** and i wish you spank him like he does me daddy and do it harder ok. i love you daddy.

  • Son I am back let me lay next to you for a little bit and I will gently rub your tummy. I love you son.

  • Thanks daddy and can you rubb my butt also. i love you daddy.

  • Your butt also OK. I love you son.

  • Is that ok please. i love you daddy.

  • You got a warm butt.I love you son.

  • It actualy feels warm daddy. i love you daddy.

  • Is your willy getting stiff or I am imagining it. I love you son.

  • Not for ages daddy andbwhat is wrong with it. i love you daddy.

  • Maybe it is the medication they are giving you or you ruined it by taking all those bad pills. I love you son.

  • Why the f*** do you keep ignoreing me for daddy. this is not fair and i need you. i love you daddy.

  • I hope it comes back daddy please. i love you daddy.

  • Son I hurt my shoulder lifting up something and it hurts. I love you so much son.

  • How come you never hold me last night daddy. i wanted you too hold me and thats all i was scared and sore daddy. i love you daddy.

  • Son did you not feel me next to you you had a good hold of my willy. I know what I felt I love you son.

  • What did i do daddy wrong and dont go. i love you daddy.

  • You did not do anything wrong. I love you son.

  • I could not get you daddy and im scared. i just want to go home and were the f*** were you again daddy please and i wanted you to hold me and im brave you no. i love you daddy.

  • Sometimes the internet goes down and we can not talk. I am here now laying next to you. I love you son.

  • Dont tell me you are gone again daddy. i love you daddy.

  • Your in the hospital and your dad spanks you again he is crazy.
    I love you son.

  • I just said i want go home and he said no. i did not mean it and i cursed and pulled curtain and slapped my butt. i love you daddy.

  • He is so stupid I will have to take him in front of the nurses and strip him and spank his bottom. I love you son.

  • I wish you would do that too him daddy and he is a******. i love you daddy.

  • The nurses will watch his willy get hard from getting spanked/ I love you son.

  • It be funny if you belted him daddy and my willy is stick up a bit. i love you daddy.

  • Oh son that is good news. I love you son.

  • Can i lie on you daddy please. i love you daddy.

  • Sure you can son. I love you son.

  • On your chest daddy please and i kind off feel sleepy. i love you dady.

  • Let us sleep night night. I love you so much.

  • Hope you slept better son. I love you so much.

  • I missed you daddy and can you hold me. i love you daddy.

  • I will hug you tightly. I love you son.

  • Its hurting me daddy and i want too go home. i love you daddy.

  • Your tummy hurt? I love you son.

  • You were talking with me and then went daddy. why did you do that for and i want you. i love you daddy.

  • Daddy was taking care of some things outside.Son I will give your whole body a massage. I love you son.

  • I just thought you left me daddy and i have shorts on and will take them off. i love you daddy.

  • I would not leave you a long time. I love you so much son.

  • I hope a nurse does not see me daddy. i love you daddy.

  • I will wave both our Willie's at her. I love you so much son.

  • Why the f*** you not answering me. i love you daddy.

  • Are you cussing again oh son clean up your mouth.Time to cuddle. I love you son.

  • Im awake and what is wrong. i love you daddy.

  • Daddy was ill all day tummy hurting. I love you son.

  • You are not welll to you said daddy. my head is pain me alot and feels it is going too burst. i did not no what i did wrong. i love you daddy.

  • I feel better today. I do not know why your head would be hurting so much. I will rub your tummy I hope that helps a little. I love you son.

  • Im glad you came back daddy and rubb my tummy. i love you daddy.

  • Your skin is so soft I hope you will feel better. I love you son.

  • Can you rubb my butt daddy please also. i love you daddy.

  • I will rub your butt and make that feel better. I love you son.

  • My willy feels tingly on the bed. i love you daddy.

  • It has some feelings let us make it hard. I love you son.

  • My face id going red daddy. a nurse look at me and was smile for ages. i love you daddy.

  • She loves it just keep on do not worry. I love you son.

  • Realy daddy and she knew you think what im doing. i love you daddy.

  • Nurses know when boys and girls do that kind of thing. We all do it it is nothing to be ashamed of. I love you son.

  • She aked me if im ok and lots off things. i love you daddy.

  • She is nice and will take care of you. I love you so much son.

  • She says im brave and handsome. i love you daddy.

  • Oh wow that makes you feel better. I love you son.

  • Yes because i am brave daddy. i love you daddy.

  • Your willy still hard? I love you so much son.

  • A little bit daddy and im holing it. i love you daddy.

  • I have too go with nurses in a bit daddy and my a****** dad is comeing up. why did you not amswer me. i love you daddy.

  • You never want too let me lie on you daddy and i feel sick. i just wanted you too lift me on you and hold me and thats all. i told you im brave and i love you daddy so good night daddy.

  • Sorry then and dont be mad at me or soap in my mouth like you said before. i love you daddy.

  • Realy let her see our willys. i love you daddy.

  • Yes my tummy and head too. i love you daddy.

  • My a****** dad gave out to me and smacked my butt five times daddy. i love you daddy.

  • I did hold you and i cant remember daddy and did you hold mine. i love you daddy.

  • What happend you daddy and that means you cant lift me and let me lie on you. i love you daddy.

  • What the f*** is happening. im try too get you ages daddy and sometimes its not let me. i love you daddy.

  • Why are you not answering me for daddy. i want too go and its sore also. i love you daddy

  • Why will they not let me go home and i said please daddy. i got shakes again and cant remeber what happend and i woke up. they said they do tests. i just want you now. i love you daddy.

  • Daddy can you lift me on top off you please. i love you daddy.

  • I want to go home. i love you daddy and please stay with me.

  • But i want go home daddy. i love you daddy.

  • Start with your step-dad first.

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