I have so much fear of inadaquacy and rejection. I fear that I was never good enough to be loved. As a child I was ignored. My father divorced us and then died a few months later. After a few years his family disowned us and I never heard from them again. My stepdad died just a few years ago and my Mother took my Grandparents and moved to another state. Shortly after that my twin became a drug addict and she'll never be coming back as she was. That part of her that was as close to me as anyone could be for over 30 years has died and won't ever be there again. Being married I'm in constant fear that my husband may die suddenly or he'll divorce me. I work in a special project with a small group of people and they've become like family to me, I am so afraid of losing them all that today I am choked with fear and bawling my eyes out.