Catfishing A Guy.. How do I fix this without ending it?
I've been talking to this guy since April, I honestly have crazy feelings for him. He appears to be the same way.
He knows I am mentally ill.. really depressed and I take care of my mother with breast cancer. He knows I have no self esteem and doesnt understand how, and it kills me when he expresses that.
I look nothing like the pictures.. different race, name, shes the same age but I lied about my age by a few years. Shes athletic, I'm a f***** (the stereotype :/)
I have perfectionism issues.
I'm very suicidal, I dont know what to do because it hurts me that I'm constantly hurting him in this way and he thinks I'm this great looking model almost type girl who has at least some of their s*** together
I'm really depressed about this and I feel so afraid to come out because I'm embarrassed and I know he will leave and that hurts the most
I know I'm a f****** idiot but I'm so scared and I feel so alone.. I'm isolated and can't make any friends because of my lonliness.. .-.and the sad part is I cause even more bullshit on myself