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I have an inferiority complex and it shows up in my nightmares
I have a short term memory problem and its harder for me to learn that it is with people who are not cursed with this. I have been fired five times for not learning the job fast enough.
Coincidentally most of the people involved with my terminations were women. I have a semi-recurring dream about one particular lady. She was head of HR at a company I really liked. I was fired after six weeks for making mistakes. My arguments fall on deaf ears.
Last night I dreamed that some hyper-intelligent woman was talking to some guy and she accused me of eavesdropping. I told her I had similar problems to the ones she was discussing but she told me to ** out.
I believe this was about being fired. It was a get out and stay out statement from the woman in my dream.
Part 3 (stupid word limit).
For me, the problem has made me very contact-shy, especially because I've noticed that a lot of people get frustrated and upset with their end of dealing with my problem. That has made work situations extremely difficult to manage. In turn, this leads to the problem of maintaining financial security, an issue that exacerbates the already existing tension that is the real problem.
My best advice is to focus on something that you enjoy doing and work towards making that your career, and go at it with all the energy you can muster, with diary in hand. It's also very helpful to have someone that you can check in with at some point in the weekend to discuss what happened over the previous days and what you see as the next weeks obligations. If you don't have someone available to do that, then record yourself, whether audio alone or video, going over your notes and describing what you see coming in the future. It might sound silly but it helps, and it doesn't take as long as the first time you do it. The journey of a thousand miles is a matter of first moving one foot and then the other. Forget about other people's impressions of you and focus on your own. You are not alone.
It's me again (stupid word limit!).
Unfortunately, in my case, none of the medications that I was offered did any real help. Alcohol, even though it has helped to unlock some memories, comes with its own dangers, and is, thus, not a solution. To paraphrase Hunter S. Thompson, I don't advocate the use of a popular green plant or magic fungii, but they have helped to soothe the tension and enabled me to relax. In my case, the tension is from carrying a whole big load of unresolved issues with me in a still huge bag of deliberately repressed memories.
The most important of my clever specialist's advice was to just walk away from other people's tension and let them deal with it. As ever, when I focus on an issue, I can resolve it, even if, three days later, I can't remember how I did it. It helps to keep notes, essentially a diary, written in your own hand so that you know you can trust the source, because you will remember having written what you wrote, no matter how too brilliant for you it seems when you read it.
Above all else, stop with thinking that this problem makes you inferior to anyone. You are you, that's all. I have had to blow off acquaintance with a whole lot of well-meaning people who couldn't exert enough patience to understand my problem and I completely understand how disorienting the problem is for you.
I think that we have a similar problem. I am absolutely not unintelligent but three days later, I look at things that I wrote in reports or get calls about work that I was involved in and I'm thinking, really, I did or said that?
For others who witness that, their first assumption is that I'm being lazy or rude when I insist on time to re-evaluate my own work, and it has cost me a whole lot of life stress due to their misunderstanding of my problem.
The really weird ** is that my mind is often preoccupied with remembering stuff from a year or more before that I had completely no recall of back at that time.
The cleverest of all the "specialists" that I've seen told me that this is common in people who've suffered emotional trauma in childhood, and I know that, in my case, there certainly was a whole lot of that.
God bless you and have mercy on you on me on this whole world