I cheated

So I had a boyfriend that really loved me, but I felt nothing.
I didn´t want to be with him, but he was really pushy and if i said no i would felt so guilty. So we were dating and i already wanted us to break up. At that time my self-esteem and self-worth were SOO LOW, so i felt that i need to say yes to everyone and everything. He wanted to meet me one day and have a good night with me. I couldn't imagine having anything s*xual with him. I wasn't attracted to him in any way. I didn't feel anything to him. So I rather went to my friend's house party. I didn't drink much so I was kinda sober (which makes this worse). So I ended up cheating on my bf with my friend at his party. I feel guilty for not feeling guilty if it makes sence. I didn't feel guilty even when he texted me ,,I love you" after i literally cheated on him. After like week we broke up. He was devastated and i felt kinda bad for him, but at the same time I was happy i escaped of this prison. I told about this to one of his friends... He called me a b*tch but supported me at the same time, he swore he won't say anything. I am better person now and i know it was the biggest bullsh*t i could do. A lot of people called me wh*re, a lot of people supported me. I will never do this again.
To all of you who have the same problem in relationship, please don't cheat.
It isn't worth it. Rather cut it off right away.

Jan 19, 2020

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  • Why even call him a boyfriend if you have no feelings for him. It was over, you just hadn’t left for some reason. I suspect he was helping financially.

  • He wasn’t. I was with him just because he was really pushy and i have hard time to say no to people.

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