Happy and Fulfilled
I am a woman who went through my life being what some call fat. My 38 years included the many diets and exercises, doctor's advice, rejections and insults you can imagine. I hated it when people would say, Oh, but you have such a pretty face (another way of saying you are fat). Sexual experiences included some guys who just wanted to score with a fat chick so they could brag and laugh later like it was a p*** flick. I got so tired of everyone's condescending advice too. When a skinny chick tells you to do yoga, pilates and five mile jogs it just seems it is more about herself than you.
I hid in the academic world comfortably until I ended up with a Ph.D. in classic literary interpretation and even taught a little. But for the most part my 228 pounds were not moving forward in life. Then, someone noticed me in a way I thought was probably academic and intellectual. He dealt in art and antiquities, literary analysis, editing and lecturing. I worked with him on some research projects and we became regular companions. It soon became obvious he was smitten with me, for the right reasons, but he was bashful of approaching me to be his girlfriend.
Fast forward: He entered my life with respect for with my mind and personality. We fell in love and then he was rewarded with my sexuality (which was a boiler about to explode at that point in my life!). I've never felt anything so warm and wonderful. He also loves my body. I became very confidant about myself. I dress in beautiful dresses and dress my legs in sensual sheer hosiery. My hair and make-up are classic. I accent outfits with corsets and waist cinchers that are made to be worn on the outside (Thanks for the ideas goth girls!). In other words I am confident, happy and laugh when guys hit on me. Sorrow fellows, you can't compete at this level. Go back to the minor leagues!
Of course you wonder about the s**. My lovemaking wardrobe is quite sensual. My perfume is exquisite, my black hair, pale make-up and red lipstick are just waiting to be messed up. We love in several positions that work well for us and the oral s** is over-the-top erotic (Yes I swallow. How's that for a diet plan?). We are satisfied with our life and the urge to please each other is intense. Knowledge, respect, intelligence and trust have bonded us for life. It is a good life, finally! All I can say is that the right man is out there. Sometimes circumstances get in the way but be patient and realize you are worthy of respect and happiness.