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Saw brother masterbating and watched
My name is Autumn, I am 16 and have a twin brother James. Growing up me and James were very close, and still are but our lives are less intertwined as they used to be. As we both got interested in the opposite ** I notice my brother started looking at me differently, especially in short or tight clothes. I have come to the conclusion that simply because he sees a lot of me he has started finding my body attractive and me being his sister is more a convenience than an issue, as he has been checking me out for a while.
I share a Jack and Jill bathroom with my brother, which is great, but have to be careful to turn both locks. He has tried a few times to accidentally catch me in the shower or on the toilet.
We often leave both doors open to chat between our rooms, and leaving them ajar by mistake has led to me being caught in underwear before by a peeping brother.
It was me who saw more than I should have yesterday, when I went into the bathroom and with his door ajar I could see him with his pants round his ankles and his hand on his hard ** masterbating to ** on his phone.
I confess, it's the first hard ** I have seen in real life, having only seen pictures or someone who had their pants pulled down, and because I have not gone far with boyfriends.
I watched him for quite a while, I was captivated, curious, and to my shame a little turned on.
Then I had a bit of a shock, he reached down on to the bed and placed something against his face, I wasn't sure what at first, then I realised it was a pair of my knickers. We share a washing basket in our bathroom and a quick check showed yesterdays were gone.
While I freaked out he ** in to a tissue, again the first time I have seen it.
I can't believe I watched him, and I can't believe he was sniffing my knickers, apart from that being gross, does it mean he is obsessed with me? What to do?
Speaking from experience, don't be in a rush to take the next step with the boys, and heaven forbid, don't let them pressure you into doing something you are not ready for. I remember all the pressures I had as a teenage boy, all my friends were having **, they weren't in reality but they were talking a big game. ** can be both very wonderful, and devastating if you are not careful. So, do it when you feel you are ready with the right guy, not because you were pressured into it by some clown who wants to use you as bragging rights.
Right now you are getting to see the control that a young lady has over boys, I will never forget the power that the girls had over me back when I was young, I am sure that they enjoyed it. LOL
Now my brother has done it to me! He can in to my room in just his pants. He had short and quite tight boxer trunks on, and I could clearly see the bulge made by his ** and **. I feel so cross, firstly I'm cross that he did it back to me, taking control and making me look week, and double cross that I couldn't stop myself looking. I even looked at his ** as he left.
I don't know what to think, I feel a bit ashamed for looking at my own twin brother like that, and as much as I pretend I didn't, I really did like his body.
So now what? I feel so naughty and ashamed, but I loved how it felt when I had the power over my brother, and how ** I felt. Help me???
Oh wow, I really did not expect him to take it up to the next level, makes you wonder, did he do it intentionally, or accidentally? Let's tackle the first part... Don't feel ashamed over your response to seeing him, yes he may be your brother, but he is a boy first. kind of think of your body as a computer, running a series of complex programs, it is programmed to react a certain way to what you saw, and it worked as programmed, it's only your mind that says, "Eww, that's my Brother." You body does not know, nor does it care, about the difference, so don't feel ashamed about what you cannot control.
Well let me tell you, you are still in charge here, and why do I say that, well that program that makes you look at him, runs even stronger in his body. So this next part is clearly up to you and how far you are willing to take it, it's called 'Escalation!' As they used to say in war, "If your enemy uses a stick, then you need to throw a rock!" For starters, try to find something sexier, but I am sure you know where this is going, and that is allowing him to see a little bit more. Again, do what you feel comfortable with doing. I do have another idea, which just came to mind, you said that he has been stealing your **, catch him! (Yeah, I know, I am sure that he hides them well, so get sneaky.) Plant a pair in his room, so when you are over there talking to him for whatever reason, 'Accidentally' find them and say, "What are these doing here?" You will get to watch you eyes bug out of his head, and you might even get to see him sweat, as he tries to explain his way out of the problem. It will be even worse if you are in ** underwear at the time! It's sneaky, but it will put you in control, for he will be wondering if he had forgotten to return a pair of your **.
So let me ask you something, do you enjoy the rapid beating of your heart and the sudden rush of adrenaline you get when this all goes down? Good luck!
I am a part time photographer, and I do many photo shoots... I was just thinking how you would probably love to have access to my costume closet during your little battle. I have many pieces of lingerie and ** underwear, for my models to wear, that would simply make your poor brother go into vapor lock! LOL
I think you have really helped me understand the battle between brain and body, and that it's ok how my body feels, it my brain that's running the show so to speak.
I think that being twins is an interesting part of this. When we were little we looked the same and were treated the same, we even had baths together. As we have both grown up, nature has made my brother more male and me more female, and we are no longer the same. Nature has also made me desire the male body and my brother desire the female body, and that is neither or ours fault.
To answer your questions, I really do enjoy the rush it has given me, even though at the time it feels like fear, but I am scared to escalate.
I am afraid to 'catch him' because that may force a conversation about ** and I think I will get shy go red and run away, it's just something you don't talk about.
I can confess here anonymously that I have done it, I remember being quite young when I discovered good feelings down there, and after finding out from a friend at school the idea of an **, trying hard and failing to have one, and giving up thinking it was made up! I did try again and I can now, and do occasionally, but not very often, and I am very secretive about it. I basically need an empty house for an hour and some mental inspiration from my day. Anyway, there is no way I want to talk to my brother about it.
Any thoughts. Very grateful Autumn **
You are blessed to have a forum like this to use, when I was your age we had nothing like it. The only person I ever told about my experience was my best friend, he told the neighbor girl and she proceeded to try to spread it around my high school. Thankfully for me, her creditability was garbage, and nobody believed her. So in return, I sat on that secret for years, fearing that there was something wrong with me, when it truth there wasn't.
As of late, I discovered many with similar stories, and like you, very ashamed, not of what they saw but how they reacted to it. So my first message, "You are not alone!" That alone turned out to be comforting to many people, including yourself. Then on to my second message, "There is nothing wrong with you for how you felt." And then, "It happened, now have fun with it." I can't change what happened, nor would I if I could.
With you a took a little bit of a different approach, I wanted you to have fun with it by showing you that you are not alone with how you feel, and you got to see the reaction on your brother's face. You have also gotten to experiment with the 'power' that women have over men. Of course don't feel bad for your brother, he has not been suffering here, I am sure that he has been enjoying every part of it.
You will one day have a conversation with your brother about what happened, I did with my sister, but it will be years later when you are both are a lot older. Oh and don't worry about your brother having a conversation about what happened, there is no way in ** that he will tell you what he was doing with it, there is just some things teenage boys will never talk about, and masturbation is one of them.
You have just discovered the relationship that fear and excitement have with each other. This is why adrenaline junkies do stupid things like jump off buildings, that fear gives them excitement. But yes only escalate when you are ready.
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