Smoking fetish

I’m a 37 year old woman with a smoking fetish. I think this must’ve started for me at around 7 or 8. I remember watching a young couple as he put his arms around her and lit her cigarette. The sight of that turned me on and still does to this day. No one in my family smokes and it is looked on as shameful, so I didn’t even start smoking until I was 27. Crazy as it was, when I was about seven months pregnant, I had a dream about smoking. I could taste it and, when I woke up, I craved it. I craved a cigarette for two days and finally bought a pack of Misty’s from the store. I got through two of them and V felt so ashamed, especially since I was pregnant. I threw the whole pack away. I didn’t start full on smoking until I was thirty. To this day, my family has never seen me smoke because I am ashamed. But I smoke daily and rely enjoy it. I also enjoy watching other people smoke. I feel torn because I know it is not the healthiest choice, but it sure makes me happy :-) I am newly single and getting back into the dating scene. I have come to realize that there are many men who absolutely won’t date a smoker and it makes me so nervous to even bring it up.

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  • Hi there - I completely relate to your feelings of intrigue and arousal about smoking and especially how young these feelings occured. You sound like a completely fantastic gal and I think you should cherish you're little secret. You are not wierd at all and, like you, I feel aroused by the imagery and feelings about smoking. I have had these feelings since I was really young, and, amazingly in my case, my beloved Aunty Clare, because she noticed me when I was just 8 years old watching her smoke, let me have a few puffs of her smoke and, one thing led to another and the next thing is she is teaching me how to inhale and asking me if I'd like to become a smoker like her. I was completely shocked because I had never thought such a thing would ever be possible, but I knew in my heart that I almost deperately wanted to be a smoker and to get addicted like aunty Clare. And that is what happened. I got hooked really quickly and knew I had made the right decision. Even though I was just a kid, I loved how smoking made me feel and I loved how I looked when I watched myself in the mirror lighting up. I felt like the luckiest kid in town and it is to this day the most amazing thing that has ever happened in my life. I have absolutely no regrets, I loved smoking even though I was so young and I love it to this day. I think ladies who smoke are exquisite and that smoking is the ultimate act of femininity. I would love to chat with you. my email is paul.horgan@ymail.com xoxoxo

  • My husband loved it when I started smoking. And there is nothing better than smoking a few cigarettes to start your day.

    Sure, health stuff. But the pleasure is real...

  • Here's some mental health advice from someone who has been through the ringer and knows: You have to be who you are. So your first order of business is figuring that out. You might want to see a therapist, if you can afford it. But there are also many online groups you could investigate.

    Smoking is definitely not a healthy habit. It would likely shorten your life. You can say the same thing about lots of other things people do (being fat, skydiving, working stressful jobs). In the end, you have to work out what makes you happiest.

    One thought: you might discover that it isn't the smoking, but something it represents to you -- rebellion (bad girl), or freedom, or something totally different. You might be able to find something safer that meets your need, perhaps even more directly.

    May your life be a happy one.

  • I love a woman who smokes. Also have had a fetish about this since my childhood. I only went with girls in school who smoked. It's getting hard for me to find smokers anymore, making dating extra challenging. Keep looking, darling. You'll find someone--eventually.

  • Awww thanks for the encouragement!

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