I have hidden the secret that I l had s** with my close friend. (Both make). I have been married for over 35 years. Wife doesn’t know this and I hold a lot of guilt because of it.
Truth be, I enjoyed sucking my friend off. We probably hooked up about 15 times over 20years . He’s still a friend but we haven’t hooked up in at least 10 years. He had a stroke and can’t perform anymore. I have ED from a nerve issue but can still do it with pills and injections.
Lately I have been fantasizing about jerking off a guy from work. I also thought about wanting to suck him off. I am afraid to approach him. He’s divorced and at least 10 years younger than me. I don’t want to ruin the friendship.
Is this normal?