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I am in love with you
Im in love with you. I wish I could tell you. I know I shouldn’t be, I cant be. But I am. I don’t know what I am going to do. Im not happy unless im with you or at least talking to you. I need to say something. But I don’t want to ruin what we have. And its not fair of me to feel like this. Not fair to you. I would never hurt you and I fear that’s what telling you would do. You are my favorite person. I get up EVERY morning just to talk to you about nothing. You must feel it. You must sense how I feel. I don’t hide my emotions well. I don’t know how much longer I can hide. I have to try. I just… I just want to be happy, but I want you to be happy more. I've been hurt before, by men who didn’t love me, just wanted to use me. I don’t feel like that about you but the situation is the same. Everything is showing up to me that you care. I feel such a deep connection to you. I need you in my life, but you don’t need me. Its not fair of me to do this. That’s part of the reason I cant tell you, but its killing me. Maybe someday I will tell you. Maybe not. I don’t know.
I feel exactly the same way about Suzanne T. I've been in love with her for every minute that's elapsed since the first day I met her, over twenty years ago. She knows how I feel, and it makes her uncomfortable, although she doesn't exactly AVOID me. But neither does she seek out my company. It's a long complicated story, but I doubt we will ever be together as a couple. Still, I love her, now and forever.