Self Spanking Mishap
I had a strong curiosity about spanking from an early age, but was never spanked growing up.
By the time I was 11 I started self spanking occasionally. I never could make it realistic enough or hurt enough to be satisfying. I also was afraid of getting caught so I did it fully clothed, which also diminished the experience.
To try to increase the pain I once took a big bath brush from my mom’s shower and tried to spank myself with it over my jeans. I think I was 13 when this happened. The thick denim and cheap brush resulted in it breaking in half. I was terrified about having to explain what happened so I hid it in the trash.
She never mentioned anything about it, but I think surely she must have noticed it’s disappearance.
Secretly, I wish she had found it, confronted me about it, and given me the real spanking I deserved. The one I couldn’t create for myself with all the embarrassment of having my pants and underwear pulled down, going over her knees, and getting my bare bottom paddled hard until I’m sobbing.