Im still in love and miss Neelam Ahmad
I met this woman on Omegle in 2011. I was trying to get my nerve up to be able to play music in front of real life people again by using Omegle. One night this gorgeous, beautiful, sexy, long black hair, dark eyed woman ends up on my screen. She requested a few Pearl Jam songs which I played to the best of my ability. And over the next few hours I proceeded to fall in love with this woman. I’ll make this super short as it’s truly a long and drawn out painful story. Blah blah blah many years of talking/not talking happen. I try and figure out a way to marry her. But know in my heart it’s not going to happen.
We emailed each other this year, just to say some things that I guess needed to be said. She is /engaged married now, so I’m not going to push myself into her life. But I needed to tell someone I dreamed of her last night, and it was the most amazing dream I’ve had in my life. I was in her old house in Croydon, and her whole family was there, it was Christmas and we were together. I should mention I hav PTSD, depression, and anxiety and when I have emotional dreams I wake up still feeling what I dreamed of. So this morning even though I woke up happy, I was in tears. I realized this morning I will and continue to love the h*** out of her. She meant more to me than any person whose ever been in my life. I’ve told her this but I truly hope she believes it. Thank you for letting me get this off my chest as I needed to tell someone. It’s Christmas Eve today, and I hope the man she is with, spoils her rotten as I would if we were together. Merry Christmas all!