Crossdressing

I am a heterosexual male who loves makeup and women. I met a transgender couple who asked if they could play with me. I never thought of men at all and used to ** to my sisters makeup mags. I went to their house and it was a ** room. I watched them do their makeup and dress each other up. This woman with a ** tells me to close my eyes. I am getting makeup put on me and I swear I want to ** some ** ** and have them ** me off. A woman wearing blue eyeshadow gives me a hit of Crack and suddenly I am a little sissy ** who can't get enough **. My ** friends ask the woman to barely dress me and give me some slutty eyeshadow. She makes me ** their ** and they ** all over my face. One ** asked if I'd lay on a bed and play unconscious so they can do whatever they want to me. 3 Crack hits later they get old girl to ride me while I stare at my eyelids and wait till they come on me.

I'm high right now in bed ** for a couple of hours wanting a ** in my **

I am 57 and just in the process of slowly coming out of the closet as a crossdresser and maybe about to enter into my first sexual relationship with another man. I also love smoking menthol cigarettes, particularly while I am dressed. I have been experimenting with crossdressing since I was a teen and it was when I started doing harder drugs than just alcohol and cigarettes. I don't believe the drugs were the cause of my smoking or crossdressing fetish but gave me some dutch courage and put me in a different frame of mind. That I was able to experiment with some of my, some would say a little **, sexual identity and desires. Now at 57, I care less about what others think of me and more about self-love. If I have no love, compassion, or understanding for myself, warts and all, then how shall I show it to others. My cross-dressing and love of a potentially harmful and highly addictive drug are also expressions of love one that may be quite harmful, my smoking cigarettes, but the cross-dressing? Who cares if I dress like the queen of Sheeba. My dressing, I believe is an expression of my femininity that exists in all humans to a lesser or greater extent. I still do a little meth from time to time and love to dress and smoke myself silly when I am high. Am looking forward to experimenting with having ** with another man as I have been flying solo for around 20 years and my last physical relationship with a woman was a disaster, partly because of alcohol abuse on both parts. Still, I remain fairly happy and content with the way things are turning out and every day I am spending a little more time dressed as a woman. I am even wearing girlish earrings and nail polish on a day-to-day basis, even when I am not dressed. Girls' clothes are much more imaginative and colorful than most men's clothes, and most of the time nature gives the male the most colorful coat or plumage. So why not dress how you want to dress and not what society thinks or expects.

The more meth and coke I do the more my urge to become a fetish ** **. Now ive taken the leap and cant wait to be a ** ** **

Ssme here. Now i want to be a ** ** full time

Coke turns me into a crossdresser lover

Back when I was younger I would freebase with women who liked to cake on lipstick on my naked ** and put eye makeup on me. After a few years I ran into her again and asked if I still played dress up. No I said and out of the blue says she'll pay me to watch me get **. He'll no but she gives me a hit of Crack and I swear I am a little **. I get to have each one dress me the way they want. #1 gives me a dress and boots. He uses black lipstick and black and purple eyeshadow watching me light up two cigarettes and ** my ** then I put my ** in his mouth and he slumps my ** and spits my ** on my face. #2 just wants to ** me in the ** and upside down face ** me. Same make-up and it's over, old girl ties my arms up, giving me wicked blue eyeshadow and sucking me off until she covers my face with ** that feels o so good. Any time I am alone now and smoking Crack I go out dressed up like a ** looking for someone to give me slutty eyeshadow and lipstick for sucking **. Why does wearing eyeshadow turn me on so much

Love it but i cant do it, what if happenys going to jail?

I’m wearing pantyhose now .I love them

That's what I think about all the time on meth is ** my niece when she was barley a teenager but I never did