I can’t get over him, no matter what, I feel truly pathetic
So I met this guy back in august and tbh I fell for him pretty fast. I mean the way we met is really adorable. He used to live in my apartment complex and he freely offered to help my Dad move all the heavy stuff in. Maybe I’m just easily impressed but I was just really appreciative of his kindness. A few days later he knocked on my door and asked me to axe throwing 😂, later we went swimming in the river. It was just a super great first date imo. The more I got to know him the deeper I fell. He’s super geeky, but also just very sure of himself. Total nerd about anime. To me he’s just everything I’ve ever wanted in a man. Confident, understanding, kind hearted, smart. He made me feel like my feelings were always valid and never made me feel weird for many of the very weird things I say. We connected really well I thought...not to mention the s** was unbelievable.
So in mid December he gets sick with Covid and I start hearing less and less from him. He also basically only has one good lung and when I was still hearing from him he was going through it hardTo start he wasn’t the best with texting back or replying, much better in person tho. Anyways it’s gotten to the point now where I haven’t heard from him since late December. He left my messages unopened for a month and then January opened them and didn’t say anything. I haven’t messaged him since but I think about him constantly. I miss him terribly and I just don’t know what to do with myself. I feel so pathetic that I just can’t forget him and move on. My friends all tell me to just let it go and find someone to get him off my mind.
Tbh I don’t want him off my mind, I don’t want to forget him. Which just makes me feel worse. 😓