Lost my virginity?

I've been really upset with how things ended with my ex-boyfriend and I just haven't been able to get over him.We weren't together that long but I really liked him.

I thought that I was over it and that it was for the better because i'm in my senior year and I just wanna be single and have fun.I figured an innocent random hookup would just cut every last thread of thought about my ex.

So I was at a party at my friends house and I had way too much to drink and this guy was really flirting with me and then he kissed me...and then we got carried away.I don't remember a lot after that point except we ended up in a bedroom.And a lot of ppl walked in on us.In the morning I found a condom wrapper.

Now he's telling everyone at school that we had s** and I try to deny it but in all honesty I don't even remember so i'm not sure if we did or not.If we did it was my first time and that is not how I wanted to lose it or whom I wanted to lose it to.I wish i'd done it with my ex.Which makes no sense but he was supposed to be my first time, even though we're not together it should've been him.

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  • i would really talk to the guy who was with you to confirm whether or not you actually did have s**. it sounds like you got raped, because you were obviosuly very intoxicated. and he knows this. if he used a condom, i would not worry about pregnancy or std's. i lost my virginity to a one night stand, and then I spirled out of control with random s** and one night stands because i coped with this by doing it over and obver agin. now s** is desensitized for me, and its been two years. i would see a preofessional counseler as well.

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