The value of pain
I used to wonder when I heard about kids cutting. I thought why would someone cut themselves. Just seemed weird.
Fast forward a few years and I started to get stressed because the marriage was on the rocks. I had problems at work. Life seemed to be going down.
One day I was feeling depressed and just squeezed one of my nipples and found the pain was distracting and then when I let go a feeling of relaxation washed over me.
Being curious, read a bit of stuff on the internet. I read that pain from spanking can reduce headaches. I read that submissive personalities get into a comfortable mental state called sub space.
Discussed with wife. She was initially skeptical and was adamant that there was no way I was spanking her. I assured her that was not what I was meaning.
Since then I have bought some nipple clamps and use them when I am feeling stressed. I have found that too much use though renders the nipples numb and so I try to do it in frequently. It's actually and interestingly a bit addictive. maybe I am a m********?
One day I woke with a headache. Wasn't sure why. Was I getting sick? Was I dehydrated? Was it stress due to some up coming deadline? I wasn't sure and asked the wife to beat me with a belt. She was quite hesitant and eventually did a few half hearted licks with the belt. I pleaded with her to really hit me hard. She did and t was really really painful but afterwards a wave of relaxation just washed over me. No more headache and renewed energy and focus.
I checked my bum and there were welts and some blood from broken skin. I offered my wife to look but she said she was not interested. I put on several pairs of undies so as to absorb any blood.
Went off to work.
That evening, I said to her that it had worked great.
With time she has become more willing to whip me but only when I ask. I think I am submissive and would love her to be a dominatrix but thats not her. In the mean time, I have continued to use pain as a distraction from stress.