Becoming a whole new person
I’m a 19 year old guy. When I’m living as my normal self, I’m pretty much uninterested in s**. I even look away when people kiss in a television show, for example—though that’s just a habit. All this to say, I’m boring.
But speaking of habits, I’ve crossdressed on and off since I was really young. I don’t know why; I just enjoy doing it, and I’m being honest when I say I Iook pretty good. My issue is that things have escalated in the past few years. Suddenly I’m seeking out men online, sexting and flirting with them, asking them to spank me, etc.
The two “me”s are starting to come into conflict. My desires are embarrassing, and sometimes even time-consuming. I’m just not sure what to do. I want to save myself for someone special, but I can’t seem to stop myself from dressing up and coming onto random men. I guess that’s the confession.