I've had enough
(sighs) Where do I begin. For the last five years I have had on-and-off intrusive sexual thoughts about my mother, sister and brother. They were really disturbing to me and I have had several panic attacks because of them. I feel so guilty because I know I'd never act out those thoughts but their still in my head and they're getting in the way of my life. They disappeared for about two years and they've come back just recently. I've finally decided to seek therapy and have been seeing a psychiatrist for the last week or so. I still have nightmares about it and I'm too ashamed to tell my therapist. I don't know what to do anymore. I've thought about killing myself several times and I'm barely able to concentrate on my college work. What should I do?