I haven't had faith in God since I was under ten

You don’t need it just be yourself

Religion isn't for everybody. If it helps people and gives them hope, good for them... But it also leads to so much evil, and you don't need religion in order to be a good person.
If ** exists, then it is definitely here on earth. Same with heaven.
I hope you have found something that gives you joy or gives you a sense of purpose. :)

76. ** is just around the corner. You can delude yourself all you want but ** is very real.