I'm confused about my sexuality and it depresses me

Im also a furry but yea anyway

It just kind of depresses me how I don't know if I'm bisexual or not, I guess. And when I come across a guy I like, or I think I like them, I kinda ** hate it. I'm a guy, so when I have thoughts like this, I feel like a ** right bc I should be liking girls not guys. And I do like girls too - it's just that I like guys as well.

I've never had **. But I want to with a guy. I always fantasize about riding ** or sucking on it, and it kinda ** me up I guess. Internalised homophobia for u. But it just feels right to me.

And some guys - you know, when you can't look in their eyes for long or you kinda smile or something, cause you feel kinda warm around them I guess. And they just look kinda cute, you know. So I'm just really in denial tbh .

About the furry stuff, I do rp as a furry, mostly sexual RP. And I'd do it with guys, girls, whoever. It really doesn't bother me. I just feel like a complete loser every time though, it also ** me up for other stuff I should be doing. Like uni stuff, so basically I do a online uni and I have an assignment due in a week and I've barely started. Anyway yea.

I sometimes wish I wasn't bisexual or didn't feel that way bc it just confuses me. I don't know what to do. I went for a walk yesterday, and I felt good. When I'm typing on the phone or computer I just feel like **. Like I'm just kinda stuck in I guess. I don't like spending money, I do get the bus and train to places sometimes. But I'd just prefer not to spend any.