Ex accidentally gives confidence boost

Years ago my first husband and I went on vacation to a ** beach. I am 5’7” and weigh 120 lbs. I was a ballet dancer when I was younger and have toned legs and a firm ** so I didn’t mind wearing the thong bikini my husband bought for me. I could not go ** though. My ** are not proportionate to my thin ballerina body. My chest is 36 full c cup and people have always thought I had implants but I am all natural. I could not go ** because I am so self conscious of my disproportionate **. I knew my husband wanted me to but I just couldn’t. I admired the other women that did. One day we were on a secluded part of the beach away from the crowds and I decided to try it. I removed my top and handed it to my husband. I was ok because no one else could see me. The beach patrol was coming on a four wheeler and I ran to the water. He stopped and talked to my husband for a few minutes and then left. I came back to where my husband was and we decided to go back to our hotel. I asked my husband for my top back. He said OMG I sat it on the back of the four wheeler while I was talking and didn’t grab it when he left. I had no towel or shirt to put on and neither did my husband. He said don’t panic. We will just walk holding hands like we do this all the time. Just act like it’s normal.
We had about a half mile walk to get back to the hotel. The closer we got to the more crowded parts of the beach the more self conscious I became. I wasn’t shy about someone seeing me in a thong because I thought my legs looked good and my ** so if someone admired them I didn’t mind but others were going to see me ** and I felt embarrassed. I kept telling myself that other women were ** and it was no big deal. It was a big deal to me. As we walked through the crowded areas on the beach on our way back to our hotel I could see mens eyes looking at my chest and then making eye contact with me and smiling. I was so embarrassed as they smiled and some obviously were looking at my bare chest and I tried to act like it was no big deal but it was. It was slow going through some of the most crowded parts and occasionally I felt like I was just at a standstill while their eyes were on me. I heard a couple of them make comments as we walked by. Not bad comments but embarrassing hearing someone say she has pretty ** and I was fully aware when I heard someone say she had nice hard **. It was at that point I thought to myself OMG not am I ** but they can all see my ** too. By the time we got to the hotel probably 100 or more men had seen me **. I couldn’t go into the hotel ** so I had to wait for my husband to get me something to put on before we could go in. I just stood looking at the water waiting for him. Not being with anyone I was approached by a couple guys trying to make conversation. I explained I was waiting for my husband thinking that would get rid of them. It didn’t. I was talking with them for at least 10 minutes before I saw my husband coming. They were obviously enjoying my predicament and kept looking at my eyes and then back to my chest. My ** were standing at attention and nothing I could do but let them look. Just before my husband got to us they told me how nice I looked and walked away. There was a woman and her husband sitting close by and she said to me, they are right you know. I looked at her and said what? She said they are right you look very nice. She said if I had a body like yours I would definitely be showing it off. She said not only do you have gorgeous legs and a cute ** in that thong but you have some of the prettiest ** on the beach be proud. My husband finally arrived and gave me a shirt to put on so we could go into the hotel. When we got to our room I was half mad at him for losing my top, embarrassed at being seen ** and strangely **. I practically ripped my husbands swim trunks off and pulled my shirt off and pushed him on the bed. He turned me on my back and pulled my thongs off and made hot passionate love to me. Afterwards we talked about my ** experience. He asked if going ** was what made me **. Honestly I don’t know but as embarrassing as it was my ** were hard all the way back to the hotel. We never went to a ** beach again but I never forgot the embarrassing but arousing experience of so many men seeing me **. We have since divorced and I had told some of my girlfriends about the experience. Several of my girlfriends and I have since taken girls weekends together and have gone to ** beaches. Yes I go ** along with the rest of the girls. Strangely enough I remember that experience with my ex quite fondly now and thanks to him I am not embarrassed or self conscious about it anymore. I even wear the same thong bottoms from time to time just to remember that experience. I can talk to people (men and women) ** on the beach and it doesn’t bother me if they look at my chest anymore. If a cute guy talks to me my ** still get hard but I don’t mind showing them either. I like being ** now and looked at in my thong. Something I didn’t know about myself until that day when my ex lost my top. If he reads this I just want to say thank you to him for waking up something inside me that I didn’t know was there. Even though we divorced, he really was a sweet and loving man and gave me confidence that I much needed even if it was by accident.