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confessions of a teen girl.
i don't blame my actions on anyone else or anything because when a decision is made its comes down solely to the person whom has the choice options. decisions can be influenced but never done by an outsider whom the options does not belong to.
i was once addicted to masturbation and **. now i still
struggle.
5 years ago i lied repeatedly to my pastor and friends that i had been ** and pregnant. they still don't know i lied to them. it breaks me to know what kind of person i was back then.
i was touched by my brother in law, who tried to have ** with me. i was in the third grade, and didn't know that it was truly wrong. and i went along with it. i even told my older sister right after what happened but she didn't believe me.
when i was a child i was encouraged to do sexual exploration by a person whom i trusted.
when i was a kid me and some younger family members sexually explored each other. as the older kid i feel and fear it was a form of molestation.
at several points in my life when i was in the sixth grade to be exact, a person i once called friend, was talking to a guy named lee. he was a perverted man. he would buy that person and people i knew gifts. but he always expected something in return even though he never got any.
on time they called him and told me to go outside and go get the stuff from him that he was safe. so i went outside and met him in his truck. he made me "take a ride down the road". he started to get physical and when we came to a stop i freaked out and ran away.
he came by another time and apologized for his actions. i felt terrified and disgusted by him and never wanted to be near him again. but none the less, i accepted his apology so i could leave the room as quickly as possibly.
i hated sleeping over her house after that.
another time he came over, she wanted to drive his truck, but he said he wouldn't allow unless he got something from me.
i refused i didn't want to. that's not the type of person i am.
she threatened if i didn't do what was wanted my hidden demons of my earlier past would be revealed to my family.
i was already damaged knowing the mistakes i had made in the past, and already sick knowing i could never get my purity back, & showing my family, is more of a humiliation and rejection then i could ever bare. but i still refused.
and i still got ** for it, i didn't want to hurt and disgrace my family with my previous actions. i wasn't thinking straight.
i should have said no and ran like ** away, and say i'd rather accept the punishment for my past demons and get beaten by my parents and ridiculed by my family then letting that happen and shame my self and them even more than my past demons would. but i didn't.
no, i just sat there crying and guilty and ashamed. i didn't want my demons to be released.
now i have to deal with this bigger demon.
i let him touch me, while i sat there disgusted and shamed. he probed me and touched me with his perverted fingers and sucked on my flesh with his disgusting mouth.
it was sin, sin that i brought upon my self. sin that i wouldn't need to bare if i didn't let it happen.
till this very day i still feel filthy.
i blame myself for being incapable of not knowing how to love someone correctly.
for my fear of commitment and of **.
i am filthy because of every wrong choice i have made. and now, i have no way of fixing my wrongs.
i made myself damaged by not doing the right thing.
now i have to live with it like this.
each day it slowly kills another part of me. and i don't know how to start over, fresh. i don't know how to truly be happy.
i have confessed to few of the people i know, and they have forgiven me. but i still have yet to confess to everyone else i know.
i still have yet to confess the truth to those whom i love. and saying sorry will never fix what I've done. but i hope one day it can give me the chance for a new beginning and foundation. to know that i can live my life with no hidden demons and move forward knowing i have nothing holding me down, nothing that is hidden. my shame would be exposed so i could start to heal again. that is my hope.
Sorry childhood ends at 12 but still until you turn 13 which is a beginning of adolescene but still not yet a adult.
A Teen are referred to 13 to 17 years old and it doesn't only mean because the way it PROnouce, it actually means adolescent.
Oh anyways I feel bad for you though.
Wow 13 years old, 14 years old, 15 years old, 16 and 17 years old aren't children and adults either. They are adolescents and childhood ends at 13 but still a minor though.
I don't know if you still read the comments. It is not your fault at all. This is how you were reacting at the time and you have no control over that because you are such a young girl. You are loved to God's eyes period. Don't let anyone convince you that God doesn't love you or wants to send you to ** because you committed a sin. He loves all gender all races and even people who committed sins. Nobody is perfect and I strongly believe your intention is not malice. Stay strong.
Masturbation is good
Masturbation by yourself, or with a peer, is wonderful and cannot be rationally condemned for religious or other reasons. The figment of some people's imagination, often called "God," is what causes harm and guilt. However, masturbation, if done with or by someone else has to be fully consensual., or else it is abuse.
I call bull **
For God so loved the worldhe gave his only begotten son that whosoever believeth on him shall not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16
Put your faith in Jesus Christ
Salvation is by Grace through faith, not of works
Remember:
The Jews invented guilt.
The Catholics perfected it.
I committed a terrible sin when i was 14.I am catholic and had finially made my First Holy Communion then at 14 in the class with the 2nd graders.My parents,along with my two grammas,dressed me like the little girls in a short sleeve,poofy,above the knees,communion dress and veil with the lace socks and white mary jane shoes.Under my dress they had me wear a white tee shirt with the white cloth first communion diaper with toddler size plastic pants over it just like the little girls wore under their dresses.After my party,my crush,Brice,who was 15,took me to his house as his parents were out of town.We kissed for a while,he put his hand under my dress and felt my diaper and plastic pants and got very **! He unzipped my dress,pulled it off of me,told me to get on my knees and he put his hard ** in my mouth and made me ** him! He shot his full load into my mouth and i swallowed it! After that we kissed some more then he walked me back home! That was 3 years ago and i have been feeling very guilty since then,and havent told anyone what happened.I am very angry at my self for giving in and letting him take advantage of me!
To poster above-You were dressed correctly for your First Holy Communion.Your parents did the right thing in dressing you as a little girl!At my parish,the tee shirt,diaper and plastic pants is the standard underwear worn under the First Communion dresses by all of the girls.When i made my First Holy Communion at 16 with the 7 year olds,my communion dress was short sleeve and quite poofy and came to my midthighs.I had a cute veil and the lace socks and the white patent leather shoes.My diaper was a size 8 pampers with toddler extra large size plastic pants over it and i had the white tee shirt as my top.It is unfortunate that your crush made you give him the **,especially with your dress off!
Just after i started puberty at age 12,i started wetting the bed so i got put into cloth diapers and plastic pants every night for it! All thru age 12 was a nightmare,then came 13 and the nightmare continued! My First Holy Communion was comming up and i picked out my dress and veil with lace anklets and the white shoes.The morning of the ceremony,i came into my room after my bath and mom had my outfit laid out on my bed.She had several of my bedwetting diapers and a pair of my white plastic pants laying there and told me i have to wear them for the day! She pinned the diapers on me,then put the rubberpants over them,then my white tee shirt,then the rest of my outfit.My party was held in our back yard and towards the end of it.i went into the house to get something to drink and my great uncle was sitting in the living room and told me to come and talk to him so i sat on his lap.A couple minutes later,he put his hand under my dress and felt my diapers and rubberpants and rubbed my **! i was totally surprised!It is now over a year later and i havent told anyone about what happened and live with the guilt of that day!
Either you have a medical problem or you ate a Catholic hatet
Jesus forgives and accepts -ask him 2 help u read his bible he loves u with true complete love
My sister only weed after getting dped by dad and brother
I am a catholic girl and my parish requires the girls making their First Holy Communions to wear the poofy knee length communion dress and veil,undershirt,cloth diaper,plastic pants,white tights and white 'mary jane' shoes.This requirement applies to all girls up to 17 for their First Holy Communions.
That is utter nonsense.
Get away from most churches and ask the holy ghost to read the scriptures with u jesus forgives all read all of john espesially 3
DONE. GO FORTH AND KNOW ALL IS FORGIVEN. SMILE AS IF YOU ARE BRAND NEW. LIVE LIKE GOD WAS YOUR ONLY BOSS.!
I have a true sexual confession that no one would believe i at the point of telling all but i would be EXTREMLY EMBARESSED if i did.
Let the light of day make the confession as weak and feeble that without your shame it crumbles to dust and the memo r y of it fade in your soul it never even existed in your mind it was only a annoying smell in your future it has no place for now only the wisdom it created in remains. Breath the clean fresh air in your free world.!
I'd love to listen
Jkjk
This ** about demons is stupid af
Agree with you