Yoga class sexual abuse

This will be a longer read and not an easy one. A warning, I hope, to some of you.

I am married and I have a very mild version of what you will call Asperger's. In my case this shows when I study anything - I tend to study all aspects of it - which tends to take plenty of my time and energy. I get 'too focused' by standards of normalcy. I say this to make it clear that what I am writing about is not based on my imagination but on facts and on what I have learned about these facts from many sources (mostly from published research).

Before getting married, my wife went thru a very disturbing experience. She participated (as a client and as a lover) in a case where a lesbian yoga instructor abused her clients. It was very serious and that lesbian yoga instructor used two men to do the harm. It ended up in court and three - the lesbian yoga instructor and her two helpers - got sentenced. The press presented the case as a "religious sect abusing their female clients". At that time I understood 'religious' as yoga (or Hindu or Buddhist) but if you read on you may agree that was likely not so.

My wife was not called to testify but she was one of the abused women. She was also an ex lover of that lesbian yoga teacher. That was how she got abused - the yoga teacher seduced the women, and then she had the two men abuse them.

Since my wife told me all that (in less detail, the details that follow are from my online research) I understood two things : 1) that my wife was/is bisexual, and 2) that she had been abused. I did not have any problem with her bi-sexuality and I was always extremely cautious about our love life - avoiding any behaviour or references that could be traumatic for my life (no oral **, no ** **, no toys, etc.).

All was good up till last year. Last year I noticed my wife could not sleep at times. I studied this and I found it was not normal at her age (27) and given our situation (I inherited before I got married, so we have no financial worries to speak about). I told my wife I noticed and asked her what to do about this. She told me to not worry. But I knew her sleeping problem continued.

After some time my wife confirmed to me the sleeping problem got out of hand. I asked her to explain to me what was going on and she said for some time she was having very lucid dreams or 'flashbacks' of the disturbing experiences she had had. Over time they were getting stronger and obsessive. She tried some medication but it did not help. I suggested getting help from a psychologist or a sexologist but she wanted more time hoping things could change.

Things did change, for the worse, and my wife asked me one day to re-create her bad dreams to see if this could help. I studied this and I found it was unlikely to help. I was also afraid of what the bad dream was. I knew it was neither murder nor anything brutal as she never woke up scared. But she did wake up in a way telling me she had a bad dream and it took a longer time, sometimes an hour or so, for her to calm down and go to sleep again.

With utmost caution I agreed to do what she wanted (and I did warn her I wanted her to get a specialist help for her no matter what outcome).

To get the dream re-lived, my wife got me to get strange things into our house. She made me buy tall candles the kind you can see in some Catholic churches. And a ** toy. It was to be the biggest one they had in black colour. I was uneasy going to a shop of this kind and I ordered the toy online.

My wife told me the day had to be full moon. We waited a few days and on the right day she had me wait in front of our sleeping room before she opened the door and let me in. The lights in the room were off, but there were very many of those big church candles lit and placed round our bed.

My wife was completely naked. She asked me to get naked. She led me to the bed and she turned away from me to make a sign on her belly with her ** dipped in something red but she did not let me see the sign. She knelt on the bed and had me kneel in front of her. She started giving oral love to me and requested me to take the black toy and play with it into her both holes. My wife never before did any such things. I did what she asked but it was not exciting at all.

After some time my wife got wet inside and she then asked me to lube her buttock thick with jelly. Then she directed me to push the oversize toy into her bigger hole. The toy was a very realistic copy of a male member - with protruding veins and a very prominent head - about two times the length and two times the girth of a real male member. She asked me to push the black toy into her smaller hole. This was not possible and I had to go and stand behind her and with more of the jelly I managed to push just the head of the toy inside her. When I came back in front and my wife kept on making oral on me but without me getting excited.

My wife ordered me to lean forward over her back and keep on pushing the black toy into her. I did so and she kept on performing oral on me now taking my member into her mouth deeper each time I pushed on the toy. The toy slowly entered her but only very slowly. After a time I knew that my wife managed to have all my member in her mouth and the head of my member was now deep inside her throat any time I pushed on the toy. My wife never before made oral on me. When the head of my member entered her throat, it was tight there and I got excited. When I was all inside my wife's mouth, she started to push out her tongue and lick my ** with it.

After more time I managed to push all the black toy into my wife's smaller hole. My wife kept on pulling my member insideher mouth and demanded from me to me to push and pull the black toy inside her. I was now excited and I did what she asked. At one moment when the big toy was all inside her and I pushed very ** it I felt that my member got again completely into my wife's mouth and was rubbing inside her throat. I got an ** then and I ** there throwing my ** inside her.

As soon as I did that, my wife got convulsive and I knew she had her ** too as she often gets convulsions. Except this time her spasms were so hard and many that I grabbed her and laid her on the bed to avoid any injury. I removed my member from her throat as I was afraid she could not get air. My wife got more spasms and then she lost consciousness. I got very scared and made sure she was breathing and her heart was beating. I spent time at her side waiting and hesitating to call the ambulance. I removed the big toy from her. It took some effort but I was delicate and did not hurt her. I noticed her small hole was horribly deformed from the toy being not human size.

My wife woke up and I was relieved I thought the act was over. But this is where the bad part of my testimony starts : as my wife regained her consciousness she was in a strange state. I think she was lost between a bad dream and the real world. She talked strange things. I made her comfortable and I stayed with her on the bed. My wife remained in her strange state for a long time and she talked profusely about 'the ** of her lord being now within her' and about her 'obedience' and other such religious terms. Finally she fell asleep. I wiped the red sign off her belly. It was a reversed cross. I put out the candles, turned on the bedside lamp on my side and covered my wife warm. As she slept I checked out carefully and I could see her smaller hole was swollen and still open but not damaged. My ** was nowhere on the bed. I understand my wife swallowed it.

Next morning I let my wife sleep long and I started to read. I tried to read as much about that legal case as I could find online. I also studied the research I could find on cults / yoga and sexual abuse. And from that day till now I have read all I could find on schizophrenia, hallucinations and PTSD.

So what I know now is that :

1) that 'religious cult' in the legal case was almost certainly Satanism,
2) what my wife made me do was a Satanic rite of 'inception' (the Satan making a woman pregnant),
3) the lesbian yoga teacher was probably a case of internalized misogyny,
4) the two men, one black (the black toy) and the other white (me - during the ceremony played out by my wife, an other white man during the sessions she experienced at the yoga place) were considered beta males used by the alpha lesbian yoga teacher.

I understand that my wife may be quiet now for a time but researchers agree she will have recurring episodes (or 'urges'). So I am going to have her get a psychologist / sexologist help.

If she requests me to repeat that strange ritual, I will film it secretly, contact a lawyer to take down my testimony, then contact a psychologist and sexuologist and request help for my wife. I am not sure how this is done but I have consulted a legal office here in town and they confirm I could do this on my wife's behalf in a justified case.

I know my story may be disturbing. But I want anyone reading this to be aware of the potential dangers of activities that promise 'spiritual', 'esoteric', 'self-love', 'femininity' yoga sessions to young women. This is what was promised to my wife and I found countless very similar offers by just entering the code words into google.

Beware. If you believe you need spiritual or self-love support, get yours from licensed medical professionals, not from lesbian yoga instructors.