I lost virginity to an idiot .
Im a 17 year old girl. I felt like I needed to lose my virginity ASAP because everyone around me had lost it but me . I pretended I didn't care .... but deep inside I was afraid to begin college still being a virgin . My ex boyfriend was still a virgin, like I was and I always hoped I would lose it to him , and I did . When we had s** it was so emotionless . I kinda regret it specially since I still care for him and all he did was use me. I always thought it would be a special moment but it wasn't .... my mother thinks im still a virgin and I feel really bad since she sees me as something im not specially since im so close to her , but I just can't break it down to her . =