I don't know how often I can say I'm sorry
I've hurt you for the last 9 years. I didn't put you first in our marriage, but I see that now. I really do. I've been trying my ** off over the last week to make you see that. I thought you'd be happy that I can see now, and I want desperately to make it right between us, but, you're not. I get a door slammed in my face every single time I try with you. Our daughter hates me. She would rather that I was gone. Our son just wants us to be together and happy. I want us to be together and happy. I love you with all of my heart. I can say sorry as many times as I want, but, it's meaningless to you. All I want is a little hope. Just a little nod that I'm doing the right thing. All I see is that you're staying to punish me. I didn't cross any line other that not putting you first in our marriage. I haven't cheated. I haven't lied. I just let my ego get in the way, but I'm a broken man now. I come to God and I ask His blessing on us. I beg your forgiveness, but I get stomped on. If this is all to punish me, have the decency to say so.
Typical man. ** all over everything good in his life, then cries victim when the repercussions start piling up. Maybe look in the mirror and work with what you see in there instead of playing the "children" card and bleating to a God you clearly don't believe in.
Yeah, you hurt people for nine years but want forgiveness overnight. You're not gonna get it. Yeah, you've got your clarity and all and that's great but you can't just be an ** for 9 years and then expect everything's suddenly going to be okay. YOU set this up. Your family is trained to expect you to be an ** and all of a sudden things change- You have to give them some time to adjust too. You have to also deal with the grief and the hurt they have because you had your head up your **. How long? WEll, how bad do you want your family? Cuz it will take as long as it takes. So quit acting like you're the big victim here and understand that you're lucky you STILL have your family after 9 years. Because other women would have dumped your ** in the dirt and taken you for everything you've got. Ya got me slick?