Molesting is no joke, is it?
To molest someone is to preform sexual acts against their will. This could be forcing them to view or create pornographic content, making them touch you, kissing, touching, s**.
Juding by this; i am being molested. By my brother and his best friend. Both of which are around a year or so younger than me.
I feel dirty. I am dirty. Im a f****** w****. I have huge trust issues. I hate men, im paranoid. I shudder everytime my brother's name is mentioned. I dont feel comfortable talking about s**. Because im the only person i know that dies a little inside when someone says the word 'rape' jokingly.
Its not rape.
I am, by law, a virgin. Not to hands though. Not to his hands.
This has been going on for a year or so now. I have confided in a few different people and always been told the same thing: Tell.someone.now.
Its never than simple.
I spill a loada bullshit about the family connection, and that i wont be beleived. But the real reason i wont tell anyone of authority is because i dont think the boys REALISE what they have done, is sexual abuse. My brother seems to take it as a joke, when he pins me down, sits on my face and gropes my bare chest. It doesnt feel like a joke. But my doubt and paranoia are fed by the thought that maybe.. i am just overthinking it.
Its a joke too far.