I AM HAVING A HARD TIME
I am having a hard time over the death of my mother she was only 54 and was a terrific mother. I had a wonderful childhood and nothing terrible happen to me I knew she was going to die but I have completely changed who I was. I stole her medication, and still continue to take it occasionly (pain medicine) talking about one pill maybe every 3 to 5 days if that but I still have them I have lost two jobs because of my depression. I went to rehab for pain addiction and it really didnt help me. I know that I am depressed so I am taking that medicine but her loss to me is so profound at times. I am a professional in the community where I live so I feel like I am hiding this so I started seeing a pyschologist who basically says, It'll take time, keep working on the steps" its been 13months, Am I crazy? Will I ever go back to the person I was before all of this, will I ever get over her death to where its a "normal grief" is there is such a one??