I'm a 17 year old girl and I'm depressed and I have finally accepted that. The reason though is because I don't have a father/father figure in my life. My dad lived in another country for more than half of my life and the desire for a relationship with him left a long time ago. This year, I've been talking to my p.e teacher and he's been giving me advice and talks to me whenever I needed it. But then one day I asked him if he would be my mentor and it took him a long time to answer and he avoided the question. He was like "Uhhhhhhhh....I can talk to you if you need to talk." That crushed me so hard and I still think about it all the time, even when I see him. I've recently been smoking weed more to ease this pain and other pain. I just don't know what to do when I see him or anything. That rejection was the most painful one and I can't stop reliving it.