Just have to get it off my chest…
I have been with my wife for 15yrs and I do love her but I tend to get infatuated with some women from time to time. Even though there is an intimacy issue at home beyond her control, I don’t think it would matter.
I absolutely love women of all shapes and sizes. A while back I met a lady that does some freelance work for me. Now I only see her once every month or so but when I do I’m happy too. Typically I go for the cougars if you will (I’m 38) and don’t care too much for the under 30 girls. This one happens to be 25 and it’s messing with my head.
A couple of weeks ago we had to go out of town on a business deal. It just so happened that we ended up staying up all night talking in a public place. It was nice she’s pretty mature for her age group. Now, she knows that I think a lot of her but I went ahead and made sure she knew by the end of the night/morning.
At this point she tells me that she’s in love with her bf of many years and if I just would have caught her a few years earlier.
So the next night after working I asked if she wanted to go out again and she was game. Again we stayed out all night. So now I’ve had two incredible nights just talking with this girl.
Don’t get me wrong I know I’m not talking love her but she has been on my mind non-stop and it’s making me nuts. Part of me just wants to play out the friend thing with hopes that I’ll be in the right place at the right time. Or perhaps I will discover that she’s not as interesting as I think she is at the moment.
By the way, there are beautiful women around us all day so it’s not purely an OMG she’s the most beautiful women I’ve ever seen. She’s just a total package.
So what is a guy to do? I’ve been told she is in love with another man and maybe what I’m about to say is pure male DNA talking but, if she didn’t have any interest why would she stay out all night with me? Not for one night but two consecutive nights?