I've been thinking for a while that I've somehow numbed myself at least partially to any strong emotion other than anger or hurt. That's all I've been able to truly feel for some time now. If I'm laughing and happy, it's almost always forced in some way. If I hear something sad, I struggle to feel even slightly upset.
What's wrong with me? Do I just not care anymore, or is this because I cursed how overly emotional I was and wanted a change? I want to feel REAL happiness again, not just some cheap imitation.