I have cut you out of my life, but I still think about you every day. I cannot write you or call you, for it would not serve either of us. I cannot be connected with you right now because you are the exact ideal of everything I could ever want paired with such destructive qualities I don't deserve to withstand.
My heart is filled with such love for you. It confuses me to be around you- and I just can't bridge the polarity of my feelings. I did not cut you out of my life for her- I did it for myself. I did it because being around you is too confusing for me. My heart cannot handle it, and you do not know how to handle it either.
I miss you everyday. I can only hope there comes a day when we meet again and can forge some kind of connection from a place of wholeness. And if we don't, my friend, I will still think of you and wish you all the happiness and light in the world.
I love you.