Crazy spot to be in
The possibility of me having another child out there, In fact it doesn't scare me one bit , because the wonderful person that would be carrying it is my long time best friend , the only person i trust and pretty much the only person that i could ever love. I easily admit that i really don't have feelings but how i feel around her just isn't a feeling alone its more like its a part of me , when she is gone i feel empty and depressed , when she is around i feel complete and happy. Ive had a goal for the past ten years that i would do anything to make her smile anything to make her happy , ive been so close to her for the past ten years that i would defend her in any situation . I had a feeling that she was special ten years ago and nothing has changed at all to this day . im drawn to her like a moth to the bug zapper. Ive always said that i would never fall completely for anybody but i know for a fact that ive been beaten . now all i do is wait patiently to see if this is what life has in store for me.