My Biggest Fear.....
Is that people will find out that I self-injure.
What started as a bad-habit I learned from a friend became an addiction that has ruined my body and makes me secretive to the enth degree.
I have cut, scratched, and burned myself with things most people didn't even know could be used for self-harm.
This secret habit mortifies me and makes me ashamed of myself.
The worst part is that everyone who knows me thinks I'm the most stable, normal person they know.
I'm terrified to ask for help for fear that everyone will think I am a weak person, or someone who's trying to get attention.
I always tell myself to stop and then the next time I feel overwhelmed, I do it again.
I have a 2nd degree burn on my wrist right now and every time I look at it, I feel ashamed to no end.
I'm sorry for letting them all down.