always see my friends happy in realtionships and happy with friends, i have friends and alot too but i can never be myself. This new years eve i was at a massive party which was wild, all my m8s were getting with people and were clearly happy, i ended up alone, as usual, sitting outside chaining it and getting wasted.
I find myself going through massive loops of unhappiness, without anyone to turn to. Im always the one people come to when they're upset or need help. But i have no one to do the same. Im used and i accept it. Im a Male and yet i just want someone to say they see me for who i am and to look after me.. not the typical male gender charcateristic is it.
If i cant love myself how can i be loved?
I guess what im saying is, I just want someone to love me, to accept me, to want me, ive never had love of family or friends and doubt ill ever have it in a realtionship. Im unloveable. FACT