Failing and worthless
I'm failing in college. Again.
I'm behind in almost all of my classes.
I can't keep up in calculus. The work is so above my head. I come every day and try, and I'm still making Ds on tests. I got excited when I made a 67 on one because it was close to a C.
I am failing Stellar Astronomy with a D as well. I don't understand the homework online and wait until the day before class to do it so I can't even ask the teacher about the questions until it's too late.
I just took a test in there and didn't know it was that day, so I've probably failed it.
The last test I took in there I studied intensely for and only made a 77.
I didn't even go to my astronomy lab last week. I forgot about it entirely.So that was an instant zero.
I feel lost in my own inadequacy at school. I feel worthless. I know it's all my fault.
I know there has to be some way I can try harder
But for right now I'm failing
And no one knows. I tell my family and friends that I'm doing good. That I get upset when I get a C. They don't know what's really happening. I wish I could tell them....