While in High School
When I was maybe a junior in high school (16-17), I was really really into watching p***. One day I found all these nudist websites and it turned me on for some reason. Most of the pictures were of groups of girls in their 20's (I'm guessing). I'd just click through the pictures and do my thing but now I feel awful about it now. Some of the pictures were of girls who could of only been 11, 12, or 13 and in some cases they were with there mothers and sisters. I drew a line at some point, but for some reason, some of the underage ones didn't bother me. I returned to the websites a few times and then the whole thing just came to an end.
I'm now 20, and the whole thing is just eating away at me. I feel terrible and can't believe I let myself get off to some of these images, it's awful. I feel like a pedophile and I feel like I have a secret. I'm afraid to tel my girlfriend, even though it would be a lift off my shoulders (her knowing I'm not this innocent person).
I feel like sharing it, to get it off my chest in some sense and because I would appreciate help from anybody that can.