Scared

I've long been excited by the thought of rape, and while I'm not proud of it, for the most part I've lived with it because those thoughts never strayed outside the setting of me alone in my bedroom -- i.e. pure, nonthreatening fantasy. Today that changed, subtly but profoundly. I was hanging out alone in a rec room, and a pretty girl walked by, into the bathroom. Noting that she and I were the only ones around, the thought entered my head, more or less verbatim: "this is opportunity."

I quickly realized it wasn't: even if the assault weren't interrupted, I had neither a condom nor gloves nor a mask, so between DNA, fingerprints and facial recognition I'd likely be caught after the fact. If I had been able to get away with it, I still don't think I would have tried, and indeed the thought so bothered me that I left immediately. But the thought did enter my head. It's no longer just fantasy. Clearly I've got the important qualities that make a rapist -- and I really don't want to be one! Can I trust the control I exercised today? Is there any way I can assure myself that I'm not a s** crime waiting to happen?

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  • Https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SKV6h_5XFbk she is just reaching for love like meghan but for some reason its alright for some to get married many times and not for others to be allowed to marry once. Lets see how these grand women cope with the health problems I have had first and had the tumors removed and the pain , their tumors and pain is just men, for years to find out how strong they are. And I have done it all alone! wait til harry ends up the image of her father cuz I think that harry looks a lot like meghans father. They will both be fat and old and she will want a younger man after some kids and boring straight constriction lady role is boring she will want to find a relax man button like diana and all of them do.
    Show lessTU-PAK-TU-S***-TU-BIT HARRI-ANNA NUTMEG or WEEDVIN WINDSORE or BI-ana is good names for their sprongs.

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    how many women have you had again yes you do look like giraffes and s***** pigs

  • I had those fantasies for a long time. I have to tell you that when I finally acted on them it was the most intense sexual experience of my life. I particularly enjoy forced sodomy because the crying really excites me as does the blood.

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