When I have s** with my boyfriend I sometimes pretend he's a girl and that's all that can get me off. He is wonderful and I want children with him. He is small like a girl which I love. We're getting married soon and I hope i'm not one of those people who decide to be gay when their middle-aged. I was married before and all I wanted was to be with a girl again. But my new man pleases me so much that I have those cravings during s**. I only watch lesbian p***. But I love my man so much. i'm not giving him up. I will just deal with this. he is worth it. I would have given up on guys if it weren't for my man.