I'm 16. My dad died in August of last year and I still feel emotional about it. My dad and I weren't always on good terms because we argued about many things, probably because we were so alike, but I still feel guilty even after his death for not clearing up all the negative comments that were shared. I'm having emotional breakdowns because of it and I don't want to share it with my mom or my sister, especially my mom because I don't want to put my emotional burden on her. I feel like I need to sit down and talk to someone about it, and I've tried talking to a couple of close friends, but they just get awkward about it, I think they just don't know what to say.
My mom is getting close with her new boyfriend and I generally like the guy, but I'm afraid if I get to close and my mom ends up leaving him, it would be just like losing another dad and I don't think I can go through that again. Maybe it would be best not to get to know mom's boyfriend(s) well so I don't have to take the risk.