I wish I knew what to do...
So I've really liked this guy for about five months now, he's sweet, funny, friendly, cute and we get on great. All the signs have been there that he feels the same, there's been plenty of flirting between us and lots of hints. I don't know if it was because both of us were too scared to make the first move or what but despite all the hints neither of us ever tried anything.
Last night we were out with a couple of friends at a pub and under the bench we were sat on he took my hand. We were holding hands for about ten minutes sort of stroking each others hand with out thumbs. Then we got in our friends car to go somewhere else and we're both sat in the back where once again we were holding hands. This kind of continued for the rest of the night, holding hands where no one could see. Later in the night we all had a group hug and while no one else could see he kissed my neck and my cheek by my lips and then at the end of the night after more hand holding he hugged me as we dropped him off home and kissed my neck again.
We're all hanging out again tonight and I really want to tell him how I feel but tomorrow morning I go away and the day I come back is the same day he leaves town for University. The Uni he's going to is a few hours away and neither of us drive so once he's gone we're not going to have a lot of chances to see each other. In some ways this makes me want to tell him more since the thought of him going off and meeting someone else there makes me feel so sad but at the same time I don't see how anything can really come out of it if after tonight we're not going to see each other for at least a month. I wish I knew which choice to make.
This all probably sounds very lame. It certainly feels it. Every guy I've ever felt close to before the situation has been very different. Usually I meet someone and tell them straight away how I feel and it either happens or it doesn't but this time around everything feels different somehow. I wish we had more time living near each other to really explore this.