What am I going to do?
This girl and I have been best friends for 12 years. We always hang out together, we know eachother so well were practically sisters. Her younger brother and I also fought like siblings, but we had a good friendship too.
Well, last summer things began to change. I kept getting ideas that he had a crush on me. He never came out and said it, but he hinted to me a lot in text messages. He put his arm around me a couple of times too. I know that might not mean anything, but if you knew this kid you would probly agree with me.
At first the idea kind of bothered me. I was sort of creeped out and afraid he would make a move. But, I kept thinking about it more and more. Somehow I managed to think myself into liking him too. I didn't want that to happen it just sort of did.
It is now a year later and the only thing that has happened is that I like him way more than I ever thought possible. He still hasn't said anything to me. We act like were still really close friends, but I cant stop thinking about him.
Now I wonder if I have thought this all up on my own, like I imagined everything. I am stuck in this mess and practically in love with him. Everyday I hope that there is still a chance, but then I wonder if he only looks at me as his sister's friend and nothing more.
I hate this situation I am in. I can't do anything to stop myself from thinking about him. I cant turn to my best friend for the help on this one. I could work to get my mind off things, but I work for his mother.
The worst part of it all though, is that I have no one to tell. I don't think his sister would care if I told her but Im worried it would be awkward and ruin our friendship. I tried telling another friend but she wasn't much help with it. I just want things to back to normal, like a couple of years ago when he annoyed me so much I wanted to punch him in the face